You are the straw that would break my camel.
Traversing the desert hundreds of days.
No food, no water, just an oasis.
Illusion of friendship always denied.
Grasping at, clutching an unreal image.
Abandoned when I needed forlorn hope.
The rest, they’ve forgotten. You’re not the first.
Only a parallel string universe.
My days are reminders of what I lack.
And my nights are relief until I wake.
I am falling behind, finishing last.
It’s time to be done; no future with smiles.
I’m so hungry, but my appetite fails.
Starving for fulfillment I’ll never have.
Embrace the end, there is nothing beyond.
Release will come when the coward is slain.
Learning how to let go, with no regrets.
Alleviate the pain and suffering.
Nobody sees the weight that crushes me.
Behind the wall of fake smiles and lies.
Internal reflections of what will come.
The calm of my descent from the living.
Consequences considered, not abrupt.
Minimize the disruption of impact.
For once I will be happy all alone.